Stop Hating Yourself in 3 Easy Steps

I thought coming out would solve everything. My secret was out, the lies could stop, and I could finally move on with my life, the way I wanted.

But when the dust settled and the initial excitement of my coming out wore off, I was faced with a reality that I was not prepared for – I now had to be myself.

There was no going back to the comfort of my closet, no place to hide anymore.

Suddenly, a whole new wave of confusion encompassed me. I had spent years ignoring myself, my thoughts, my desires – and now that I had come out and declared my sexual identity, I was left scrambling to figure out the rest of the puzzle.

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Can Gay Men Really Be “Just Friends”?

Remember that scene in When Harry Met Sally where Harry explains why men and women can’t be friends?

“The sex part always gets in the way,” he says.

Then I thought maybe this rule applied to gay men as well – a demographic known for being sex-crazed and superficial.

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What You Need to Know Before Coming Out of the Closet

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Without a doubt, the most common question I get is, “How do I come out?”

For closeted people, it’s more than a question – it’s a brain-eating amoeba that chews away at your hope and sanity. (And the only prescription is more cowbell – sorry, couldn’t help it.)

In my opinion, there is no right or wrong way to come out.

Sure, there are less stressful ways to come out – like telling your best friend in private as opposed to your homophobic mom finding gay porn on the computer – but in the end, your secret is out and you’re forced to deal with it.

And so you grow and you learn – two words synonymous with fear. Think about it: How can you grow up emotionally without ever feeling nervous or scared?

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11 Ways to Simplify Your Life & Save Money

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I quit making New Year’s Resolutions long ago, and you should too.

Why? Because you’re going to fail at them, and then you’ll hate yourself and ultimately develop worse habits, like referencing Golden Girls episodes or drunk karaoke singing “Man! I Feel Like a Woman” in front of a less-than-gay-friendly redneck audience…but I digress.

Resolutions put too much pressure on us, and this “all or nothing” mentality is not a healthy way to look at self-improvement.

That’s why I came up with a handy list of things that I know will help!

Here are 11 of my personal tips for simplifying your life and saving money in the process:

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Why Google Has Me Living in Fear

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About once a year, I diagnose myself with an incurable disease.

To date, I’ve had neck cancer (a benign cyst), colon cancer (my poop looked weird), gout (my feet were tingly), and HIV (I was tired).

Then last week, a curious mole on the back of my leg started to itch.

“Melanoma,” I thought, scrolling through the symptoms on WebMD.

The inception of Google has turned my general sense of unease into full-blown hypochondria, like a steroid for fear.

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How to Work Your Happy Muscle

Happiness, as I’ve learned, is not a default state of mind. You have to work for
happiness.

For years, I beat myself up for not being happy. I waited and waited…but happy never came, and that’s when I discovered what a selfish, ungrateful human being I was.

I didn’t deserve happiness, I thought, because I WANT to be happy instead of inherently BEING happy.

This wasn’t me feeling sorry for myself; I was genuinely perplexed as to why I couldn’t wake up each morning excited to take on the day.

Finally, I asked myself Why am I sad?” instead of asking myself “When will I be happy?”

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